My recent experience with doll set in motion a path of discovery that has brought me to a general conclusion. All leaders are born but are finished in the “making”.
I can’t help but think that my stupidity and ignorance concerning male-female interpersonal relationships has actually proved to be an asset in my activism. We’re I to have been like most folks, programmed by all of the lifelong conditioning to value traditional social norms, I would never have been able to do as I’ve done. The social programming that teaches most people to value things like chasing the opposite sex, social standing, personal reputation, Hypergamy, and marriage would have prevented me from acting against those conventions for the sake of selfless greater good. The very quality demanded of effective leaders. After all, why should I follow someone into danger if that person has never made direct sacrifices themselves, has never themselves lost skin in the game?
In focusing so heavily on altruistic endeavors to the exclusion of romantic interpersonal relationships, I allowed those skills to rust. You have to stay in practice to stay sharp and I paid a bit of a price emotionally for that neglect. Such a positive accident though since the experience brought me back to the very core of what it is I’m really all about, that being the health and welfare of the human family. I have now come full circle, having explored the farthest reaches of the human condition to finally circle back around to the most basic of fundamentals. Is romantic love now in the cards for me? I suspect not unless she’s some sort of goddamn kick ass, hard-charging General like me, who gets off in staring death in the face to save others.