It wasn’t too long ago that I asked God to make me into a stronger Christian. Before I said this prayer I must admit though, that I had some trepidation.
In my years on this journey, I’ve come to realize that God teaches us through experiences. Sometimes, the experience is a pleasant one and at other times, it is not. This is not to say that all of the rough patches that we go through are because God is causing them. No, that would be dumb. We are fallible enough to make our own lives a mess without God’s input. In fact, I’m of the personal belief that God never makes life hard on his children, he does however, allow us to experience adversity so that we can learn. We got ourselves evicted from the Garden, with a little help from Lucifer.
So when I asked the Lord to make me better, I knew that things could get rough. I’ll admit, I was kind of scared. My desire to be more of what God wanted me to be outweighed my fear though, and I cast an earnest prayer. Now, I do see far more than I did before. I can see the Devil for what he is and in a more personal way. I do now, understand much better how evil works in the world and what our roles as Christians are in freeing people from it. And yes, my trepidation had merit, for I have had to pay a price for my newfound insight.
Of course, if you’ve read parts of my blog, you know that I am a victim of gangstalking. I only recently (October of 2013) became aware that I was a “Targeted Individual”. I have been one since the age of fifteen. If you read parts of my blog then you also probably understand what gangstalking is, what it’s goals and origins are, so I won’t go over them here. Suffice it to say, it was only after I made the prayer to become a better Christian that my eyes were opened to what was happening to me. It was revealed.